Winding down...

Whew! I feel like I have been going, going, going like a mad woman the past few weeks. It's like there is always something going on or something to do! But, if you know, are married to, or are a teacher you probably know the hectic time of year that is the end of school! My husband does not enjoy the months of August or May...I severely neglect my wifely jobs like cooking, cleaning, doing laundry(who am I kidding, I have never been an overachiever in those areas!) during these two months. There is just so much going on...I can't help it, really.

However, I am on the brink of summer break...it is soooo close...2 days, so things are slowly starting to wind down, I mean I am updating the blog BEFORE midnight and on a school night to boot! But with school winding down I feel like there are some other things that personally I am ready to pump the breaks on.

So since October,as a lot of you know, we have been actively trying to get pregnant again...to no avail. I found my self most months really prioritizing it. I was all "To Do for November: I gotta learn how to teacher persuasive writing to second graders AND get pregnant." "To do for April:  How do I teach second graders to write Fairy Tales, oh yeah and GET PREGNANT ALREADY!" Try as I may each  month to be like, whatever, we are just trying, no stress, meh...yeah right...I am super obsessive about certain things and getting pregnant is one of them, evidently. 

With that being said...I am exhausted...really. This month did me it I think...I was 2 days late and even though I took a test the day after my period was due I was still slightly hopeful the following day when it still didn't show up and I started trying to come up with some reason I would have no period and a negative pregnancy test but still be pregnant...even though deep down I knew it just defied logic...I haven't really had time for good ole logic these days people. 
Anyway, you can probably guess what happened the 3rd day...yep...confirmation that I had indeed lost the capacity for rational thought the previous 2 days...I wasn't and am not pregnant. Quit playing games with my heart(and mind) mother nature...

I think, though, I am ready for a break...now I don't know how that is going to really go over once I hit that peak fertility week in my cycle this month, but for really my heart is just kinda worn down and needs a break from the the little mini tears it endures due to my disappointment each month. So, we are gonna just take a hiatus from "active" babymaking...you know the charting and all that crap...just live life, enjoy the upcoming summer break, and wind down.

Happy start of summer all!